much happier :)

I am so thankful for all of your comments and messages of encouragement.  I hope I didn’t worry anyone too much.  I was just being honest in the middle of a stressful time!  I am feeling much better now.  I have lots to be thankful for and God has been giving me a better perspective than what I was buying into before.

I didn’t really sleep much last night.  I couldn’t go to sleep because I started making plans for my “new” life sans wedding photography stress.  I can’t wait to give my all to Eva.  I have lots of great plans for us, and for our family (so watch out Pete!).  I’m going to try and implement as much as I can before January, but I know that I still have a lot of work ahead of me so it’s not all going to be possible.  Eva is getting to the age where I can use a lot of my skills that I learned during my Early Childhood Educator days and I’m so excited.  As I was studying ECE in school I kept thinking about when I would be a mother and that I would most likely use the skills I was learning more with my own children than in the field.

Then I got to sleep but about an hour and a half later Eva woke up and kept waking up a few more times over the next hour or so.  Something clicked on in my brain and I couldn’t get my mind off my photography and my new plans for a company “facelift”.  I’m really excited about the changes I am going to make and how much better of an experience the client will get when they book me.  It will also be a much better experience for me because it will enable me to put a lot more of my heart into each session and each client experience! 

The best part is that I think I may have discovered how to balance my home life and my work life, so that I can still do what I love as a mother but also what I love as a photographer. 

The worst part is that all of these good thoughts literally kept me up until about 6:30 am.  It was awful!

Gotta go, my lovely daughter is needing some cuddle time!

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4 thoughts on “much happier :)

  1. kelli

    you are inspiring. i love you.

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  2. Mom

    So glad you are feeling a little more hopeful, even though tired. It is frustrating when you can’t shut your mind off at night, but sometimes, that is when you get the best thinking done! Crazy! Anyway…don’t forget in all your dreams, to get some rest and take a deep breath. I love your honesty and truthfulness and I love you!!!! Hang in there! Mom in Regina

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  3. Gerri Ashby

    Even though we haven’t met, I look foward to meeting you this coming Sunday. I have a co-worker who is married with 4 children (ages 6 months to 7 years) and she runs a successful photography business from her home. I would love to talk with you and have you meet her to share with each other about your businesses. I know that once you settle into Calgary and the church family you will feel much better about life here. God be with you during this time! Gerri Ashby

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  4. Tami

    hey! so glad that you are finding new perspective — we all need that!! especially within motherhood. :)
    hope you three are well — we had a very short layover in calgary yesterday and thought of you –as we were running to catch our plane!

    btw — ryan thinks you have to change the name of your blog – since you’re not here on the west coast anymore. :)

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